Even It Out

Part of me wants to avoid addressing this subject here; I am so much more, so much better than this. But right now (for so long!), it's the only thing on my mind:

I cannot remember the last time I had a meal when I enjoyed it and relaxed and ate and breathed and didn't examine its many facets, didn't analyze what it meant, what I must do or couldn't do or should do or had done to make it all "OK," to even out the numbers, to drink it away or throw it up or throw it away or anything.

Do people just eat? CAN people just eat? Is it simple for anyone?